slow week

Today is Friday and all I can say it has been a will heck of a week. My boss is out of town all week with his mother passing way and I have ran out of stuff to do. I have been mostly playing around with Photoshop and learning new techniques for future stuff but I have been doing other stuff when it comes to mind to make stuff better.
I finally got to stay home last night. The first night this week and really got to sit down. I caught up on home stuff like paying bills and washing the dishes. I found out that I’m becoming lazy and that has to stop. I have gotten bad and not doing stuff where in the past I was on top of things.
I did get to watch my show last night though. Smallville was pretty good but I think they over did the whole Fortress of Solitude but it was a good season premiere. Alias was also pretty good for the first one of the season. It was sad but now it will get interesting to see how see will work and do all of those stunts while pregnant and plus the bad guys ticked off a pregnant woman. Man, are they are trouble.
I ran with my friend Dan last night and it was great to run with him. We ran around 5 miles and it was nice and easy. We were running a pretty good pace where time just went. I miss running with a partner. They seem to make time fly more and you don’t’ think about your own running. We talked the whole way and got to know each other more. He is also running in the same race I am next week. I was trying to figure out his weaknesses but couldn’t really find except that he likes to start in back and like to start up front. I will have a little head start if he starts back there.Well I better get back to work. I only have a couple more hours and it will be the weekend. It looks like I might be staying in again tonight. I don’t know yet.

death is just the beginning

I have been in situations lately where death has come into play. A friend was remember a loved one that died a year ago last nite and a co-worker’s loved one died just today. It just got me thinking of death and what happens afterwards.
When it comes to death I feel that I don’t have a heart and for those who know me know that I wear my heart on my sleeve for the most part and that I rely of emotions or vibes from others but when it comes to death I don’t have emotion has most people do.
When my grandpa and uncle died in the same year I didn’t shed a tear or didn’t feel sad. I mean I felt sad and that I miss them dearly but that was about it. For years I tried to figure out why I didn’t feel the sorrow that others did. It really, really bothered me that I didn’t show emotion at all.
Last year a friend that I went through high school and college with died. We weren’t close but we like to keep up and compete against each other. It was a great! I remember going home for the wake and seeing everyone form my past. It was good to see everyone again but under the wrong conditions I kind of forgot why I was there for about a min. I know that is so terrible but it is the truth. Well I went up to see his parents and they were missed up and that is totally understandable. I gave the tight hugs and comfort them the best I could. My sister went with me and she was not doing so well. It brought up memories of her past friend that past on and I couldn’t help cuz I didn’t know what to say or anything.
Sometime after his funeral, I don’t remember exactly where it was or were I heard it from, somebody said,
When one passes on you will see them again. It isn’t the end just the beginning for them in there new life with God. They don’t have to worry about the burdens of this world no more and they are at peace. So be happy for them and remember them in your hearts because there memories live in us.Since then I have went to funerals and they still aren’t fun and I still don’t get emotional but I remember that I will see them again and that all things happen for a reason. I have come to the conclusion that I’m going to be strong for those that aren’t and that need the support. I will pray for their families from time to time that they are doing well. I might seem like a heartless person but I’m not. I just keep in mind that it won’t be the last time I see these people again and they don’t have to worry anymore They are with their Father now.

Life is good

Hi all

Well life keeps getting interesting! It is crazy!!

I went home this weekend and it was good to go back home and relax for a weekend. Like a mini vacation me where I got to hang out with my family. My dad got a new truck and it is pretty nice. It is a 03’ White-F150-V8 extended cab. I don’t if that means anything to you but it does to me. It is a Hot rod 4x4 White Horse!! Nice!!
I got to spend Saturday with my sister and she let me drive her car. Which is like a rare event. She doesn’t like the way I drive. We went to the lake for the day and had fun.
We were suppose to get our parents Christmas present this weekend but she got in late the nite before and she didn’t get up in time so WE will HAVE to get it down next time I come home which, will Thanksgiving probably.
I also got to see my puppy who has gotten fat well not fat but has grown into his Lab gene. He has gotten wider and with a thicker coat. He is still fun to play around with but I wonder if I can still out run him. I didn’t get a chance to really play with him but maybe next time.
Things are going good between Jen and I. Other then that I’m not saying much more. Ha!I’m still training for my race on the 8th of Oct. and for those that want to see yours truly race it will be going past Missouri State so you can cheer and then go back to bed. The race starts at 8:15 so I will be around the campus around 8:30 of somewhere that time. The training is going well I still have to watch it that I don’t over do it. I found out a friends is also running it so I have to watch that he doesn’t beat me. Or do my best that he doesn’t. He wants to run with me around town and that is cool but he runs a lot more then I do. He has more time then I do. So see where that goes.

Interesting!!

So I went to go see “Just Like Heaven” last nite. I enjoyed it and I give it 5 out 5 stars. What made it extra special was the person I went to go see it with. It was Jen and My fourth date and we are enjoying each other company. Well I think she enjoys my company. She hasn’t really said. I think she likes to keep that up in the air to make me go nuts but it make life interesting. I leave her place asking what the heck just happen. Women!!! I could see this going somewhere. Please pry for me to relax.
Work is going good. It has had it’s up and downs this week but it ended up good. The downs where that I got two flat tires this week going to and from work. It is only the back tire so it makes me wonder it the thinness of that back tire has anything to do with it.
I’m home for the weekend to see the family and do some Christmas shopping for the family. I will tell more about that later. Top Secrete!! I haven’t been home in a while and it is nice to be home but it isn’t really my home as it was. There are good things and bad things about growing up. But it is all good!!

Come' to your town

My hometown has made it into a song. We have hit the big time. Big & Rich are a new duo to the country rich scene and they have wrote some songs that not everyone likes or that are a little different then a lot of the country out there. They just released a song called "Come' to Your Town” and it is different but I like it. One of the reasons I like it is because my hometown is in the song "Jeff City MO." OH YEAH!!
http://www.cowboylyrics.com/lyrics/big-&-rich/comin-to-your-city-16352.html

So yeas last nite was fun. Missy and Mandy came over and hanged for a while. We sat on my new porch and talked for a while then we came in a watch Forever Young with Mel Gibson. I love that movie!! That is why I own it.

I am training for the Sunshine Run 10k, which is on Oct. 8th. So far it is going good. I think my body broke down this week that is a good thing, where I can start building back and start to get stronger and hopefully be ready for the race.

I have some interesting things coming up that I will get into more detail later. Exciting!!!
Life is pretty good where I have stopped trying to control everything in my life. I guess you can say I have given over the controls to someone that actually knows where my life is supposed to go. I know it isn't that easy but right now I'm not feeling as weighted down.
Catch yea later...

Something to think about:

This is from my pastor back home.

"And when the Lord your God brings you into the land that he swore to your fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give you—with great and good cities that you did not build, and houses full of all good things that you did not fill, and cisterns that you did not dig, and vineyards and olive trees that you did not plant—and when you eat and are full, then take care lest you forget the Lord, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery." (Deuteronomy 6: 10-12)
None of us has forgotten what happened four years ago. September 11th will always bear a certain weight within the lives of all Americans. It is one of those days we’d like to forget, to live as if it had never occurred. But that is not possible. And we would be a bit foolish to live as if it never happened. After all, those who fail to heed the lessons of history are doomed to repeat them. But it’s not just tragedies like 9-11 or Hurricane Katrina that burrow into our psyches, refusing to be forgotten. There are all those bad decisions that we’ve made that always seem to haunt us, refusing to let us forget. That leads to the endless projections of what might have been if we done this or that differently. Such doubts are what mid-life crises and depression are made of. Then to compound the problem, we fail to remember all the good things. The bad decisions haunt us (what if the 9-11 hijackers had been identified in advance; what if the residents of New Orleans had all evacuated; what if I had applied myself more diligently in school or that job); the good decisions are repressed (one of the hijackers was arrested in advance and jailed; many residents of New Orleans did get out; you did learn great skills in school and now receive all you need to support this body and life in your present job). Why do we forget the good and dwell on the bad? Psychologists describe it as the Zeigarnik Effect. Zeignarnik argues that all the regrettable events of the past are continually spun around in our minds, waiting to be solved while the blessed events are easily forgotten because they involve the closure which our minds desire. So we forget the good and dwell on the bad – chalk it up to a mind that is bent askew by sin.
The Lord brings answer to every fallen, broken part of our lives, including our memory. So Moses delivers his farewell sermon in the book of Deuteronomy with words to direct the lives of the Hebrews – remember! He knew that enjoying a lush life in the Promised Land would quickly lead to them forgetting how they got there (only by the grace of God), so he says, “Remember!” But the entire message of the deliverance from Egypt and the entrance into the Promised Land does not hinge upon God’s people remembering Him, but the Lord remembering His people. That is why Exodus 2:24 proclaims that the Lord determined to save His people because He remembered His covenant to Abraham. God remembers! So also, when we weekly celebrate the Lord’s Supper we do so in remembrance of Christ – not just as a reminder to us, but in celebration of the fact that just as He remembered His covenant with Abraham, Christ remembers His promise to us that we receive His body and blood for the forgiveness of our sins. And notice what is combined there in the Lord’s Supper – remembrance and forgiveness - in other words, remembrance and forgetting. He remembers His promise and therein forgets the sins of His penitent people by forgiving them. Our sin-hampered minds may suffer from the Zeigarnik Effect but Christ is not under Zeigarnik’s constraints. And it is His remembering that makes all the difference.

no more paying to clean

Thank goodness it is Friday. These last two weeks has been draining but it is almost over and I hope to get things balanced out this weekend. Hopefully! I am now an owner of my own washer and dryer.
I had bought them from a friend’s mother and she was hard to deal with making everything harder then it should have been but they are now mine. After going outside of town to get them and with only two guys moving them with a second hand dolly we got them up my apt. That was a workout! I didn’t get to try it out that night because it needed more stuff but I didn’t get them cleaned up and ready to be moved. The next night I went out to get the stuff where I ran into some old friends and went over to the Bahr’s to get some special tape of the units. At the Bahr’s and saw there wedding pictures and got to play with Sheriff the hyped up mutt. Left there and got a phone call from the twins saying they want to see my place and I said I to come on over, I beat to my place where I got started on rewiring the dryer and putting the air shoot on.
Mandy, Missy (the twins), and Aimee came over and kudos to Missy for climbing into a small space to hook up the other end of the shoot. Good deal. I took a rest for the washer and dryer units and set and talked to the ladies. We talked about kinds of things for a while and then they left and I thought I would test on the new washer at 10:30 at night. You know just do a fast test run.
Well it was… Ummm.. Lets just say kind of wet. The return hose for the water wasn’t hooked on the right way and the hot and cold-water hoses weren’t tight enough. Yes I was the one who hooked all of that up. Laugh it up!! Well after twisting my body and getting back behind my washer I got everything back working right. I notice and put some divots in the linoleum flooring. We lost one of the bottom pads in the move but I made a makeshift one that should last a while.
My wireless net I was looking forward to is still not working. They used the wrong antenna so for the past week and a half I have been with out massager. I have keeping busy with the apt so maybe it is a good thing. The apt might not be in as good of shape as it is now if I had the net. The say the earliest will be Monday to getting the wireless net going again.
This weekend I already have stuff planned which I am really looking forward to but that is a secrete which I can’t talk about at this time. For those who know mums the word.
Life as been well though but I must go and finish my project.Have a good weekend

Good 3-day weekend

First weekend in my new place was very good. It feels more like home now. I got everything mostly unpacked and I am to hanging pictures now but I am taking my time to put the pictures where they will look good and in sync with the place.
Let me see Friday I went over to Renee’s to help her with her entertainment center and try out my new computer. The computer works great but to this day, the wireless Internet isn’t working. So once I’m on you will know when the net is working again. Hanna called and wanted to go out so I got another friend and we went out to cowboys, which is not fun on Fridays anymore. No more country!! L So I will probably only go on Saturdays from now one unless there is a special reason I should be there.
Saturday I was suppose to go out with someone but they never called back so I stayed in and fixed up more of my apt.
Sunday I went to church and went out for ice cream with a new friend then we went back to my place and hanged out and watch a mooovie. Good day! I also fixed my bike and got it ready to ride on Hwy 13 and I rode it around for a little bit.
Labor day I slept in and fixed up my place a little more. I went to the mall and paid $10 for a hamburger but it was going to help people down south and we got to give what we wanted so it was my doing. Then I went over to my friend Renee’s and went to the Nature Center to walk on the trail and it got dark really, really fast.It was a good 3-day weekend.

Moving day

Well I am moved in but that doesn’t mean I’m completely moved. I still have to unpack. I took off work yesterday and couldn’t have picked a better day to move. I forgot home much crap I have but it will all be unpacked soon. Everyone should come over and visit. If you don’t know where it is get in contact with me. It is a great place so far. I have fun cabinet space in the kitchen so much more I don’t know if I will be able to use it all. It is a lot better set up then my old place and everyone has like it so far even my parents. My parents did like my last place that much. I kind of have Internet but, not really right now. I will work on that and then I will be back on line.
Thanks to all of you who were able to help. It was very much appreciated cuz without your help I would probably be under a pile of my stuff.Till next time I gotta jet…