Last week

The real hero is always a hero by mistake; he dreams of being an honest coward like everybody else.
Umberto Eco (1932 - ), Travels in Hyperreality (Harcourt)

Well this last week went by so fast I'm glad a hanged on. I worked a lot and I had fun along the way. Thursday I went to my first Christian concert and I wish I knew more of the songs but it was fun. What is better I went for free. How cool is that. I went with my friends from the LSC and I asked if I could invite my friend Kelsey and so she came but had to leave during the last part of the concert, the main attraction, Michael W. Smith. We were off to the side of the stage and that meant that we were on the side of the speakers also. I wouldn’t mind going again.
Friday I was hoping for nice weather so I could take my bike on my grand adventure for the night. Relay for Life started at 5 and I had to be at work at 6 so I just went strait to work after stopping at the apt for some warm clothing and food. I drove to the paper and it was suppose to be a easy night but it wasn’t. We ended waiting around for 2 hours for part of the paper, which really made me mad, but I went with it and did my job. I ended getting to the Relay at 10:30 and had fun for the rest of the night. I started of by burning off some much need energy by running 6 miles and being chased by men dressed up as women. I started but I also finished by out running them. That was fun to run that fast again. I saw some old running buddies so I ran with them for a while and they were running 26 miles or more and since I had to work again that next morning I didn’t want to over do it so, I let them have fun with that. I learned some new swing moves and got to dance with 4 women. That was fun. I also got to do a little kickboxing. I miss kickboxing some much I kind of want to get back into it. See what happens. The night was cold and sometimes was long but I kept warm and by running and just kept moving.
The morning came and I had to go back to work. Well the night b4 I was smart and knew I was going to be tired so I wrote a not to my boss asking if I could just work the short first shift that next morning. Well I left the relay early to get a little extra sleep I turned off my alarm and went right back to bed. When I did wake up I had 10 mins. to get to work. I said this is going to be good. I got to there like right on time. I’m not use to being late for work so I just rushed in nothing had begun so I thought I was ok. My boss was like I need people here on time and I need people to be able to work all day. I looked on the list and it said I was going home early. In side I cheered but then I said if you want me to stay I will I said I would stay and finish the job if you wanted me to. She said, “No that is fine we will just be down one person.” I said ok and just went to work. Got out at 12 and I told a friend if I got out early from work that I would play frizbee. I was so tired still that I wasn’t going to be much help but I was the only there that was going to know how to play. So I went and I didn’t have the speed I usually did or the afterburners but I did a pretty good job for the most part. We lost every match but we had fun and met some old and new friends. After all of that I was worn and torn up. I went home and said hello to the floor and stayed there for a couple of hours. I have not really worked out did anything since Saturday and I’m still sore and I love it to tell you the truth it lets me know I pushed my body like I did in high school. Lets me know I still have it. I learned a lot that I don’t really want to get into.
My second job at the newspaper is becoming a pain in the butt so I’m think I’m going to let that go. Time mean more to me the extra money made. So in two weeks I will be free to do the stuff I want again.

Expectations

Expectation: ex·pec·ta·tion ( k sp k-t sh n) n.

The act of expecting.
Eager anticipation: eyes shining with expectation.
The state of being expected.

Something expected: a result that did not live up to expectations.
expectations Prospects, especially of success or gain.
Statistics.
The expected value of a random variable.
The mean of a random variable.

Expectations in my mind are treading on thin ice. Yes we all have expectations and if you don’t you are kidding yourself. You can have the great expectations in life and them never happen but then why have them then if they may never happen at all in the first place. Maybe it is that whole having faith thing, that things will turn out for the best in the end.
Example 1: When you someone goes for a job interview they go in expecting to sell themselves to the business that to be a great asset to the company and get the job. If not, they have it in the back of their mind. Most times the go out of the interview with high hopes that they would here in the next couple of days or weeks, “We would like you to come work for us.” So, for the next couple days things are going great with the feeling that they will soon be employed by this great company. Now when the phone rings and the company says what they are going to say. Either way you are still on thin ice with expectations.
Example 2: Going out on a date with the person that you have had you eye for a while. You both might have been friends for years and decided to see what would happen if you two went to the next level or you might be two people that were set by friends. There is a thin line that you are on while you are on the date. You don’t want to say to much about yourself or say to little and not show your interesting self. Yes you want to be your self but you don’t want to show all of your cards at once. The expectations might be there in plan sight or in the back of you mind of do they like me, do I like them, or could this be the one. With every moment try to figure out if they are keep their distance or wanting to get closer. When it is over that is when you look back and that is when the expectations paid off or not. It might be in a confused state saying do they just want to be friends and nothing for or a yes I would like to go out again.
Example 3: Going out into the real world a lot of people have a lot of expectation of what their future holds. Find that job that you can work and love for the rest of their days with no trouble or to retiring earlier then anybody else traveling the world. Those are just some. Again expectations are there that is a balancing act but nobody knows if you are going to make it to the other side.
Expectation are good to have but do you want to set them to high but our parents tell us from the time we are young to shoot for the stars and you can do anything you want to do. So what is the deal should we even have expectations, should we set our expectations high and shoot for the stars, or go through life by the seat of our pants.What do you think? Or do I'm I looking at it all worng?

What happen to getting back to people?

I have really noticed this in the last couple of years. When it comes to replying to a phone call or e-mail it seems that people are getting worse about not doing it. Is it so hard to call someone back? When you call someone and don’t get them but, leave a message don’t you expect to get a reply back? Even if you don’t want anything to do with that person would you expect some closure at least? Are people to busy in the race of life to stop and just say, “Hi?”
I called someone this last weekend and since they were out of town I thought that they would probably call back when they got back in town. Oh no, didn’t hear a thing so I wasn’t busy that nite so I decided to give her a call to see if they were doing anything and got the voicemail so I left a message. I was expecting to hear something later that nite but nope, nothing. I might be jumping to conclusions, which I hardly ever do. Ha, ha, ha! I couldn’t keep a straight face but I would like to think I give people a chance.
I couple of months ago a friend came back in my life and I thought it would interesting to hang out with them again. I called when I wasn’t busy and wanted to know if they would want to hang out. I e-mailed and left messages. No I wasn’t stalking but every once and I while I would drop a line. This person is very busy and I understand that it might take a few days to get back but they never did. So I confronted them and they said that would like to go do stuff but I keep forgetting stuff or to busy and I just forget. I e-mailed them saying how it was hard to be there friend when the don’t call back. Did hear back from them for like a month. Saw them one day and they said I was afraid you were made at me so I didn’t call back but still would like to do something. Wouldn’t you think that is would make it worse to not say nothing at all and let it get worse.
Now I have said I would call somebody back and things just got busy but I always get back to them. I just think people have so much on their plates these days that they can’t slow down to see the bigger picture. What the bigger picture is is different for everyone but I think taking a breath and catching up would be the same for everyone.
Anybody else has the same problem or is it just me? I think the good old golden rule applies here say, “All things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them.” It is something like that.
So please take to heart if some calls you and leaves a message call them back to give them a call back even if don’t want nothing to do with them. Wouldn’t you want them to do the same to you?
Picture of the day: http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/astropix.html

Houston We have have a problem!!!!

I don't know what to do about a couple things in my life that have come up in the last month or so.
For one I got this second job to help out with some bills and maybe save up for something but lately it has got me going crazy. I was hoping for 10 to 15 hrs extra a week. Well last week mainly I worked 16 hrs plus my 40 hr career, which equals up to 56 hrs for last week. I went out clubbing last weekend and I was so tired and burned out. I was feeling so out of it but I made it a game and stayed with it. With this job it is so easy but sooooo boring and you don't when you are going to get of there. It could be a 2 hr shift to maybe 4 or even more hrs. I talked to my boss twice and she said she would get back to me every time. I don't if even I can keep this up. I haven’t got anything done in the last two weeks and I feel like I don't get to see my friends anymore. I want to look for a job that says I’m going to work for this time to this time but I'm so busy that I can't even do that. I'm so afraid that I'm going to hit my limit that I have though of not working out as much trying to save energy but I love to workout too much to stop.

I'm also looking for a place next year and that isn’t going to good either. I have been so busy with this new job and trying to catch up I hasn’t had a chance to go look for a new place. I had looked at two but I don't think I can afford them on the salary I get at this time. Even with the second job I would be pushing it and if I keep the hours I'm keeping now I'm not even going to be living at the place except for sleeping. Sleeping doesn’t seem to be helping either. I go to bed tired and I get up tired. I didn’t even have this much trouble when I worked at Target at 4 am in the morning.

Other stuff in my social life I don't want to talk about over the computer. To personal for everyone to see but I can give you one word that can describe it all. DRAMA!!! Ok I can’t just describe it with one ward! How about: Confused, dazed, not know what the heck is going to happen next. I still feel I’m doing everything that God wants me to do but wow I'm like what is going on up there. What is You cooking-up up there? Why now?I’m just keeping in there and following the path that is laid out in front of me. Something has to change but I don’t know.

Well I'm going to get back to work and keep focused on the tasks at hand.
Piture of the day:
http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/astropix.html

That is so awesome!!! I saw that last nite!!
Till next time catch you later

Intresting!!

Your dating personality profile:You matched the following traits:
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.
Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.

Your date match profile:You match with women who have following traits:
Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps her body in top shape.
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.

Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked
1. Athletic
2. Religious
3. Big-Hearted
4. Stylish
5. Adventurous
6. Wealthy/Ambitious
7. Conservative
8. Traditional
9. Outgoing
10. Romantic

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1. Athletic
2. Practical
3. Adventurous
4. Religious
5. Traditional
6. Big-Hearted
7. Stylish
8. Romantic
9. Sensual
10. Wealthy/Ambitious

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Second Chances

So I was just wondering what everyone else thinks about this or if this just blows your mind. Do you ever wonder why people COME back in your life?
In the last couple of months people from past years have come back in my life. Months ago I saw a friend at the Y that I thought I would never see again. We use to run together when we had time but lost track when we got busy with life. It was funny. We caught back up like we hadn't seen each other in a year or so. She said she wants to go running again and go do other stuff. I think she is great but she is just so darn busy right now that we can't find a time to do something.
A couple of weeks ago an old co-worker called me right out of the blue to see what I was up to. He was bored and didn't know what to do. In my mind I said, "Was I the last person on the list or are you desperate." It also could have been just to catch up and go do something but I don't know. The phone call didn't feel right though. I said I would call him back but life has been going very fast lately so, I haven’t gotten back to him. I feel bad but I can't help it that things have come up.
Then one nite I was online and I was curious how an old friend was doing. I heard that she just broke up with her boyfriend. IT was a relationship of two years. We talked for a while that nite. I knew that she like country music so I invited her a free concert. She said yes and we went and had a great time. We were walking back to campus when relationships came up in the convo. She described the kind of person she would like to end up with. What she described was someone like me. I don't know if she was playing with me or not. Well we went on a date and it was great but also weird. She said she would like to do it again but she was keeping her distance. She said that she just needed time to get back to she wants to be so I said in not so many words 'I will wait or I will be here.' I think she likes me but she needs to have some be the person she wants to be and just hang out and I understand that but man it is so hard to play it cool.
Isn't weird when people come back in your life. Does it mean these people are desperate for attention hat they would get in contacted with you? Does it mean that a great friendship could come out of the catch up? Could it mean that this people could play a major role in things to come or could it be a second chance...

Picture of the day: http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/astropix.html

Not to be absolutely certain is, I think, one of the essential things in rationality.
Bertrand Russell (1872 - 1970),